The Power of Family

My goodness. I have gone through such a roller-coaster ride of emotions these past couple of days. I have to tell you, if you haven't already known, that the power of family is incredible when you need a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen. They will be there for you no matter what, they will drop everything practically to help you cope with things going wrong in life and they give EXCELLENT advice!

I have realized CLEARLY that I need help in boosting my self-confidence and self-esteem. It is okay to ask for help, and it is okay to see a therapist to have them help guide yourself to a better you! Not everyone lives a perfect life, not everyone has lived a perfect life with the perfect parents, and the perfect role-models. I have shut out those kind of thoughts and feelings for the most part, and have repressed a lot of my childhood memories because of the hurt it caused. I remember thinking as a kid that I wished my family was like so-and-so's family... thinking that their family never fought, they stuck together through thick-and-thin, and were very involved with each other. Mine was very secluded and non-social until I was introduced to playing sports. To be honest, playing sports are what my best memories are growing up. I don't really remember spending quality 'Family-Time' with my Mom and Dad unless it was at a theme park... which would explain my obsession with those. If we attempted 'Family-Time', camping for example, there would ALWAYS be fighting with my parents on those kinds of trips, there ALWAYS had to be an agenda to stick to, which caused a lot of hate and discontent.
To wrap this up though... I may not have had the greatest childhood, but it's okay to talk about it and to try to self reflect on how that childhood as morphed you into the person you are today. Today. I feel that I have little self-confidence and self-esteem in myself as a woman. I've listened to a suggestion that I need to hold my head up everywhere I go, DO NOT LOOK DOWN as you pass someone on the street etc. By holding your head up, you exude confidence and will be seen as someone who possesses it. I tried that out yesterday, I couldn't believe how many times, every time, that I passed someone I would put my head down and avoid eye contact. By shutting myself out from others, it only shows that I am a shut-in.

It's time for change. With my family's help, which includes my best of friends, I will get through this transition in life to become a better version of myself!