When you would be here in my arms

Waiting for tonight.

Well, not really waiting, but I am ready to go home already from work. Even though when I do eventually go home, I don't do anything. I need to have a drive of some kind. I need to have some kind of purpose. I would like to have more self-confidence, and have thought that it would be so awesome to take dance classes with the hubby. The other day, he mentioned that he would like to do martial arts of some kind and get some confidence that way and suggested me trying it with him. My first instinct was "ew!", but he mentioned it could be good in case I am by myself in a bad situation. I guess that's a good idea. haha! I will try to research some classes around here, or ones in a bigger city, and just put ourselves out there and DO something for once! :)
I listened to a Zero to Travel podcast today about international house sitting. It sounds like it would be a ton of fun, plus you're guaranteed a place to stay, even if some places may not be very "nice", I think it would be worth it to have the experience of it all.
Ryan and I need to sit down and plan our 1st Year Anniversary trip. We were thinking of going to the coast, and were also thinking of taking a week off for it. We could go to Portland too, and other cities we have talked about visiting over there. Not only do we need to plan our coast trip, but we REALLY need to plan our BIG trip outta here. My good friend from high school recommended us to use the BootsnAll.com email reminders, as those emails give great instruction/step-by-step on how to achieve where you want to go with the budget that you have. I look forward to speaking with him more and getting more help on travel as we get closer... but we haven't even STARTED. It is quite frustrating. It just seems like the first thought of money being involved, I get in the fetal position and forget the thought of ever traveling. It's a terrible habit, and damn it. I am determined to live outside this damn box!
Another thing I would like to REALLY try doing on my own is my own meditation practice. I would like to get into something to help me clear my mind, my thoughts, my feelings, etc. I feel that it could really help with this inner-turmoil that I have been experiencing in my journal entries at home.
I almost want to invest into a new, or new-ish laptop, to use for our travel and hopefully use it as a tool to bring us income. My laptop at the moment has died completely and of course anyone in this situation would love to get rid of the darn thing instead of try and fix it. Especially since technology is ever-growing, and this one is approximately 10 years old or so. Are you loving my logic talking myself into buying a new computer? LOL, yeah... I should just fix my old one for now. :)