Oh Hai

So I deactivated my Facebook earlier, I realized I have a huge problem by staying on there for long periods of time, all throughout the day. There was a point where I deleted the app from my phone to try and prevent myself from using it, but I don't know if that even lasted a full day. I have found that I am not creating any sort of value for myself. All it seems to be is a real-time version of a yearbook.  The drama, the sadness, the good times, and the bad. Facebook tracks all of these things for you, which is really kind of great. You have an online system saving all your precious memories without having to create old fogey scrap books. Although that is well and great, we have grown to succumb to the almighty red notifications number. We want a score of how good our post is from the opinion of those, who, we are mainly just acquainted with. Our entire lives has morphed even deeper into a judgemental system. Wasn't it kind of bizarre that at one point, there was no such thing as a mobile device? People generally stayed out of each other's business and had to know somebody to find out what is going on. Now, most times, people just have to look up your name in this gigantic phone book/year book to find out if Timmy fell in a well again, or if Bruno the dog passed away yet. 

People are snoopy as fuck. Including myself. I really need to spend this time to focus on me and my close friends and family. I need to try and put myself out there, and try to make new friends the old fashioned way. As I think of that last sentence though. We really aren't there anymore. Technology has made us it's bitch and we can't help but obey it. I choose to spend my time without it for now, at least technology which takes up my entire freakin' day. I kept my other social media apps that I hardly use to hopefully be more focused on my journey and spending it healthily with my husband.