I am not sure how many times we have discussed having people over at our apartment past midnight... but I know it has been more than 3 times. I am trying to look at the bright side, however, in knowing that my husband needed someone else to talk to, as he has been going through a lot of negative feelings and thoughts from his path in life. He really did need a friend, but I also really need sleep.
I could actually feel myself going in and out of REM sleep... (Rapid-Eye-Movement - deepest active dreaming sleep). After my body realized that it was fully awake, I was furious... but then. I thought about how he needed someone to talk to, and tried to give it my all to just try and fall back asleep. Alas, no such luck... I was awake for about an hour and a half (it was 2:30 a.m. by this time).
I know... pity-party, party of one.
Oh well, the only thing that I can do from this point is to tell myself that today is going to be a good day, and press onward. No sense in dwelling, I am awake and at work now.
I hope someday he listens to me though, and values the things that I ask... just as I do for him.
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